Sunday, October 9, 2011

Six Sentence Sunday...Oct 9, 2011



The nature around us is a gift from God;  if we slow down and take just a moment to look closely we will see his hand.

As hard as I might try, even if I fight with all of the strength that my poor heart can muster,  I cannot make it through this life without love...

Fear of failure makes you keep your colors inside of the lines!

There is nothing more sweet than a tiny new baby, curled up, sleeping on your chest...your hearts touch.

Sometimes, you do not see the joy in your life, until it has passed!

The deepest purple of the morning glory, surrounds the glowing light that come from deep within.


Fall photo, by Jules
Near Evergreen, Colorado...U.S.A

Saturday, October 8, 2011

No Butterfly for You....

Well, I woke up and went to sit outside on a beautiful weekend morning, where no need to rush to work makes me feel like a queen!
During the week, time for things that truly feel like a blessing are somewhat diminished... it is more difficult to rise and face the day, knowing the insanity that awaits me.
Breezy, fresh and peaceful was the world, as I sipped my smoky java and inhaled the day!
I began to notice the flowering weeds in my yard! I guess they are weeds because "city girl" Jules, did not plant them...The lavender flowers growing wildly, supported by the ragged grass that needs attention were just a hub of activity.  Woven in between are the morning glories, which I did plant, because I so love them (and because they photograph like champs)!
Bees, both honey and bumble zoom along with the slower moths and butterflies. All shapes and sizes of winged creatures, just flitted about enjoying my disheveled yard.
The light was awesome and speckled with moving shadows, as my trees danced with the wind.  I was not going to miss this inviting opportunity!

I left the steaming mug abandoned and alone on the glass table top and rushed to seek out my camera!  It was just where I knew that it would be, entombed in it's black leather pouch.  I rustled it loose from it's coffin and pushed the little silver button to revive the lost soul.  NOTHING!
I shook the case to free the other two batteries.  As I fumbled with the silver casing and released the latch, I wondered just how long had it been?  Two more attempts at camera CPR only resulted in dead bodies... put a toe tag on 'em and move on!
In hopes of not missing the capture of my outdoor bliss, I grabbed my cell phone.  Okay, not much of a tool but when you snooze you lose.  Apparently, I have been asleep at the wheel a lot longer than I realized.

I scared away the first orange and black butterfly.  How did he know I was there?  Did I need to move down wind?  So, after scaring away two other posers, I thought sit down, blend in...
I am so damned funny!  It is not unusual to drive by my home and see some women laying near her overgrown "garden" shooting pictures of the underbelly of a bush.  Neighbors, just pass by, slowly and in awe!  I believe that I have carry tons of entertainment value on my block, and the kids just love me!

So there I am, I sit still and wait...cell phone posed for a shot to share with you!
Here comes a black bumble, so fat he looks lumbering in his flight.  He lights "quickly" on a few purple buds before he reaches the capabilities of my humble cell phone.  I smile with anticipation as he sits right in front of me, I push the button... and turn off the phone.
Oh, you have to be kidding me.  I laugh, the bee lurches on to his next choice meal.  Okay, so try again...
Ready, set, push....slow learner hits the same dad-gum button!
One lovely, huge butterfly attracts my rapt attention across the yard.  Oh my goodness, it is huge and sports amazing, colorful wings.  I put down the cell phone and just sit quietly and watch.
I know that if I move he will be gone.  I know that the phone is not going to cut it... so the crazy weed lady puts down her non-picture taking camera to sit and watch the life around her.  It occurs to me that we miss many beautiful things, while we are on a "mission".
So, I stopped.  I just stopped and watch the life go on around me.  Birds were singing, I could feel the sun on my arms just before it ducked behind a small cloud.  The breeze blew in my crazy red hair.  No camera today, nothing captured, nothing to share.  Just a small moment, flitting from flower to leaf...just my life in this moment...

Unexpected

I have been away for a little while...
I have locked up, shut down and now have managed to trudge ahead.


The latest thing to overcome was having to place my Grandmother in a nursing home about a month ago.  "Muzz" has been my roommate for over 20 years, she is now 97 (she will be 98 next month).  It was not always a picnic, but she was my buddy!  And though I "bitched" in my head, that I wanted my own space and some privacy... I loved her and she loved me.  
Well, I have to work and it was getting to where things were going a bit mad at home, whilst I was away.  Suffice it to say, she could not manage small items that may have gone awry in big ways, like burning down the house.
She is in a good place and I have been visiting often.   So, while not ideal, I think it is good for her.  She is active and attended to... 
I, however am scared!  I wonder who would have thought that the absence of a 5 foot, 100 pound, 97 year old woman would make you feel like you need an alarm system?  It is funny what you get use to and what makes you insanely insecure!


Anyway, not all has been bad!


I have a new daughter in law, Sarah...who married my awesome baby boy, Kenny!  That was so much fun and so special.  They are going to have a wonderful relationship.  So, now all of my amazing sons have lovely partners, who are strong and smart and who will keep the families intact.  They have deep core values and make the most blessed daughters!  I am a lucky woman!


I NOW have two new grandchildren, that are about a month apart. Interesting turn for our family is on my side they are the first GIRLS since me.  I was the only girl and I have two brothers, I have 3 sons.  We are blessed to have Caroline Elizabeth and Emmy Grace!   What fun...Gram gets to buy girl stuff!  There is a special place in my heart for those little boys, too.  Andrew, Harrison...Gram misses you!


So, as I come out from under the boulder of life my and have a bit of space to concentrate on me and what I see around me and what I love or despise, these posts and pictures are a must...


Thanks, to all of my friends out there life has been quite a ride!  Hugs to all of you who may have noticed my missing posts.   I send good thoughts and the hope that life has been good to you in these crazy times!
I will see you soon with more posts and photos (as soon as I find my camera, that is)!


Have a wonderful weekend!


Sincerely,  Jules